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Fuck.
Nov. 14th, 2008 | 11:24 pm
mood: 
contemplative
So, Usually I dont write blogs about specific people (well, except one asshole) but today, right now...Im going to.
So, today I was a lot sad.
I asked Nick If he wanted to hangout last night and he said 'Maybe', so today when I asked him again he was like "No, i dont want to. I just didnt want to tell you last night so you didnt get mad". Well..I got mad anyways. I dont exactly know his reason for not wanting to come over other than "I hate you house". WHELLLL, his house isnt much better. I go to his, even though i dont like it much there, and I always come back smelling like a giant cigarette. Thats fun. And, Theres a lot we COULD do, but most of the things he doesnt like (basically anythign but getting drinks with alex downtown) and most of the things cost money (which...seems to be a problem for him...even though Hes the one with like $2,000. and im the one with like $0. Shouldnt I be whining?). Well anyways, yeah. I asked him to come over. But i know he just wants to go sleep. If i left him alone for the rest of forever, he wouldnt miss me. Hed just sleep. Im starting to really think he doesnt even care. He could see that I was obviously upset today, and he still went home. Oh yeah! And before that In 6th i was so fucking pissed. So, he says I wont talk to him in 6th. WELL, maybe I would if he wasnt instantly trying to talk to Kira. Throwing stupid notes about nothing across the room. I hate Kira more than anyone. "Are all the big kids getting shots today?" Yeah. Shes definetly not the sharpest tool in the shed, shes more like potting soil or some shit. Anyways, im really frustrated right now. I dont know what to do. I cant sleep and i have so much fucking shit to do. So. For my 2 days off this week, instead of hanging out with Nick like I should be ( and wanted to be doing) I get to go to the Humane Society in the morning , and today I did nothing. And neither did he. Just how he likes it. Fuck. Im so sick of all this stupid shit hes doing making me cry. He says I just have a jealousy problem or whatever but I dont. Hes not passing Dnell notes, hes not flirting with Christina, hes not talking to Kari as much as he talks to me. BUT he does give Kira notes, and he does flirt with Kira (even though he denys it) and he does talk to Kira about as much as he talks to me. I hate that stupid little sophmore faux hippie bitch. DIE.
Oh and then at 11 when I was getting ready to tell him that we should just stop fighting, He says hes tired so I didnt. Fuck him. What did he even do today? Sleeep? Text Kira (because he certainly wasnt texting me for 3 hours)? Eat Jack in the Box?
What the fuck ever. I think Im madder than Ive ever been. Im sick of being treated like someone he can just push aside when Im not interesting or 'hot' or whatever.
So, today I was a lot sad.
I asked Nick If he wanted to hangout last night and he said 'Maybe', so today when I asked him again he was like "No, i dont want to. I just didnt want to tell you last night so you didnt get mad". Well..I got mad anyways. I dont exactly know his reason for not wanting to come over other than "I hate you house". WHELLLL, his house isnt much better. I go to his, even though i dont like it much there, and I always come back smelling like a giant cigarette. Thats fun. And, Theres a lot we COULD do, but most of the things he doesnt like (basically anythign but getting drinks with alex downtown) and most of the things cost money (which...seems to be a problem for him...even though Hes the one with like $2,000. and im the one with like $0. Shouldnt I be whining?). Well anyways, yeah. I asked him to come over. But i know he just wants to go sleep. If i left him alone for the rest of forever, he wouldnt miss me. Hed just sleep. Im starting to really think he doesnt even care. He could see that I was obviously upset today, and he still went home. Oh yeah! And before that In 6th i was so fucking pissed. So, he says I wont talk to him in 6th. WELL, maybe I would if he wasnt instantly trying to talk to Kira. Throwing stupid notes about nothing across the room. I hate Kira more than anyone. "Are all the big kids getting shots today?" Yeah. Shes definetly not the sharpest tool in the shed, shes more like potting soil or some shit. Anyways, im really frustrated right now. I dont know what to do. I cant sleep and i have so much fucking shit to do. So. For my 2 days off this week, instead of hanging out with Nick like I should be ( and wanted to be doing) I get to go to the Humane Society in the morning , and today I did nothing. And neither did he. Just how he likes it. Fuck. Im so sick of all this stupid shit hes doing making me cry. He says I just have a jealousy problem or whatever but I dont. Hes not passing Dnell notes, hes not flirting with Christina, hes not talking to Kari as much as he talks to me. BUT he does give Kira notes, and he does flirt with Kira (even though he denys it) and he does talk to Kira about as much as he talks to me. I hate that stupid little sophmore faux hippie bitch. DIE.
Oh and then at 11 when I was getting ready to tell him that we should just stop fighting, He says hes tired so I didnt. Fuck him. What did he even do today? Sleeep? Text Kira (because he certainly wasnt texting me for 3 hours)? Eat Jack in the Box?
What the fuck ever. I think Im madder than Ive ever been. Im sick of being treated like someone he can just push aside when Im not interesting or 'hot' or whatever.
